Today I am writing about an experience I’ve lived, it is an experience which my body let me live but what I’am about the write now, millions sums of knowledge behind this…

Those who know me closely know that I take care of my eating habits, health and body. Now I have a much more reserved place for it. After Access Consciousness came into my life and being my life-style. However, body is the emperor of it’s own world. That is to say, you need to connect with it at small ages for understand and realize it. Messages given by the body is really important and needs to listen; sometimes there can be incredible knowledges.

Let’s get to the day of the event: 8 May 2016. It was The Mother’s Day. Every spring, my mother and my dad go to my aunt’s lovely farm house in Lapseki. They don’t return until the end of the sacrifice holiday.In a word, I miss them a lot every summer. Again, on Mother’s Day, when I was senselessly sitting at home, my sky sibling called me and invited me to the breakfast with her mother. I didn’t want to go so much so that I made excuses but as the saying goes ‘’you can’t escape the fate’’ We had breakfast in a marvelous place which is breathtaking near by the sea in Tarabya with brilliant people. We celebrated mother’s day for all the pretty mothers the world over.

In the meantime, something happened to me for the first time… Everything turned white and I passed out. At first, I was taken to the private hospital. I had to stay there for four hours because they could not understand what was bothering me, I had to stay until they could figure out a solution. After all that and after they show me how much it will cost, I finally reached my own doctor and I was taken to the public hospital. From the very beginning, the whole ordeal was like hell… First station was very commercial, second one was definetaly an academic hospital. So every aspect of my life was prepared carefully by the universe and the god. It was apparent that, there was no escape…

48 hours, my life was filled with a never ending pain that become worse and worse. I did not eat anything for 3 days because there was a possibilty that they might have taken anytime under an operation. At that point, unbelievable things started happening. There was no one from my family but it seemed like everybody was there. All of my friends and my sky siblings (who I really cherish and collect them as a pearl.) (If I have mistakes, forgive me) were making schedule in between them in order to stay and take care of me. I wanted to say to them how grateful I was but I was suffering so much that my words and tears were getting dry inside of me and they were staying in there. I think, I had the most popular blood searching operation. What we understood in there, it is not a problem to find the blood donor, but the real problem is to be able to find the right blood and able to take it. Within this period, I was still thinking; What was the reason that i had lived all through this? There was no answer for this question.

Until I found the courage for writing, I did not know the name of this experience. I was having a cyst burst in my abdominal area (for this type of cyst possibility to burst is one in a million especillay in this part of the body), actually it bursted three weeks ago which I couldn’t realize. My stomach, my liver and my diaphragm were full of blood and nondescript liquids. All three were pressing on my diaphragm and didn’t let me breathe. When 4 number of the grandpa (the strongest)  pain came to visit me, my breathing stopped for 8-10 second… Normally, you can hold your breath for longer than this when you are under the sea. It’s something some people do for fun. However, in this case, when you can’t breathe because of the intolerable pain you’ve never experienced prior to this in your life, the only information i could think of was ‘I was dying’.

I will tell you what have experienced in short order.I went to into dark. There was no breath, no life, nothing was nice dwelled there. Only I was being that’s it… I just saw lights and strange people. The people were passing through inside of the light. Some were laughing, some had no expression. I even saw my own mother and father. I hugged them and we were laughing together. The last scene that I saw was unutterably nature and the feeling of  existance energy. I started to get scared a lot. At that moment, I was convinced I was running to my own death. Brave Aysun gone away. She fell off the face of the earth. She disappeared. I began to pray.“oh my almighty God, I always thought when moment of death come, I could deliver myself to you easily at comfort due to my faith. But this time did not happen and I failed my class. I am terrified, please set my mind at ease. Say something.” My expected messages never came in. I had step back everytime.

I always say: “You cannot have a right to talk about something if you don’t have experienced it. You can only guess. Therefore, if someone has any experience, you should listen to them wholeheartedly.”

On my way out of the hospital, I finally started coming back to life. At the time, topics like taking my physical health back were still meaninless and empty for me. Thankfully, my body always response quickly and it helped me a lot for recovery. Again for this time I got fine soon. Meanwhile, my principle great doctor came back from abroad.Of course, the reason I have lived them all, because since he in abroad he could only  gave instructions over the data availble. Once I went to check in to him, he looked and said ” I still can not beleive how did it come this far where you could get over this with little emergency intervention.” All of this was actually just an excuse. I had to live through all this and every detail is already designed proparly by the universe.

The only thought that was in my mind after our conversation which was pretty much shocking “why had I experienced this? What was the reason behind it?”

The world is changing; everyone wants to change now and the effect of the universe and its cosmic energy is quite different compared to other times. However, for each change, you need a karmic cleaning. You need to confront it.

For approximately three years, I create classes and gave sessions. I do not remember almost eighty percent of what I lived during that period. However, I was aware of my own childhood traumas keeping me from finding myself. The effects of what I had through my life was in my body, in my body’s language, in my habits, in my behavior patterns and my judgments. I have always worked on this issue with my awareness.

But recently, I realized that body awareness is another way. It has its own memory. It manages a different kind of relationship and has a different roadmap. You can detect what you have achieved if it will warn you.

We are the only responsible what we create at our own lives.

As we all experienced as an algorithm of precept-control-orientation that we put in our lives for the last 50 years is about to end. This is what we call the recent past.

I could not imagine this side of my life even if I have that information contained theoretically while i was using to change myself and alter my lifestyle. With this issude that I had, I have wiped all of my childhood karmas from my past.

I worked hard to get this information. Was I supposed to find it?

If this feeling has been nibbling at you, then you should find what it is! If you can say that what happened happened, that it’s over and you will be ok with it, then you can keep going on with your life.

As I mentioned in another blog: I am a maestro now. I am standing up, I am choosing my awareness and energy in this new age. I will keep going on my way.

I chose goodness of love, understanding, peace, joy, and the complement.Fortunately, I chose right. Find yourself, love and hug the glow in it. Show it to everyone as inspiration. Love yourselves as always.