We met in December in 2015. Our story began when she came to have The Bars Session as she was affected by the effects of The Bars session on a close friend of hers and she was curious about it so much. I couldn’t have a deep idea of her at that time. They weren’t comfortable in terms of time. After the session, I got a call from Tugba saying that she was impressed by the experience she had had and she wanted to take a class. According to me the bars class day was quite different. I couldn’t reach the standarts I normally have during the class because she had billions of questions and they were all questioning Access. Then I realised that it was Tugba herself indeed.
She entered the Access world too fast. The Bars, Foundation, 3 – day Access Body Classes and then a Gary and Dain’s America and Canada classes… Approximately after 3 months she will have become a Certified Facilitator of Access Consciousness.
Tugba is a daughter of a modest and a bit conservative family. She is a precious mixture. She spent some part of her life in Zile, a town of Tokat. Later she went to university in Istanbul and later on another education programme in the USA.
She sometimes offers typical Turkish points of view and sometimes American points of view. As I have told you before she is a precious mixture.
I would never imagine our way of friendship on the day she came into my life. After all her being precious comes from her being unpredictable. She has incredible purity and respectfulness in her heart, and if she opens her heart to you, she offers all these to you without any limits. Her love and respect are so real that if you are not real you feel uncomfortable. She has no as if area. She is sensible person but at the same time she reads the energy perfectly. Well her astrologist has told the same recently. Therefore she is pretty tubis approved by that world too. It is her nickname she uses in some social platforms since she is really pretty.
Our journey with Tugba suddenly turned into a partnership from being a counselee – consultant. I saw that she was dealing with her life, interested in this world. I offered her to work together. Of course typical Tugba told me that she couldn’t promise, she couldn’t have a 9 am to 5 pm job, she would leave whenever she wanted. And I told her: Who told you to do these? “ As it is certain that I didn’t tell any of these I have told you she needs to say “no” so that she can say “yes” later. By the way she condradicts with herself greatly. There comes something and you ask her: “ Hey Tugba could you please follow this? “ then you can forget about it. She follows every details, development and completion of it with her 100% perfectionist way and she astonishes you. Isn’t it funny? She negotiates with you and then she does a perfect job. This is very her self.
When days goes by we experinced something together. ( my blog named death or the side we do not know.) She was near me all the time when I nearly experienced death. It has been six years since she lost her father. She was her father’s one and only. She was like her father. She inherits most of the things she knows about life from her father. He was a humanoid. (someone with a high level of perception, who can read energy), Tugba chose to become a humanoid when she was born. She became a half doctor as she was near him during his sickness. Her knowledge, hospital process, medication but the most important one is the psychology of the patient. I am grateful to all my friends and fellows who were near me but Tugba’s being near me was different. She was the only one to have known and done what I needed without asking by perceiving what I really experienced. Since that day she has been my sky sister which means someone to whom you feel sisterhood without being born from the same father and mother. I know that she did it as she was herself but in my world she is a part of me I will be grateful for the rest of my life. Sometimes she looked into my eyes and understood what I meant sometimes she held my hand while I was crying, sometimes when I said that I wouldn’t eat she gave up being Tugba ( as Tugba insists ) by saying “Your soul needs to have this so that you can back to us” she made me move on. Everyone used to stay near me in turns. ( I am grateful ) when I was not patient she told me that she would come and stay quietly. Thanks to everyone, everything and my life.
There were days she forced my tolerance by talking too much and tiring me. I listened, listened and listened to her. I am glad that I listened to her since she was talking about a different message, she was saying that she wanted to get out of where she was. And me I was there just for what she wanted. We are still spinning, we do not want to look there but there will be a day and solve the first loop of the tie by holding hands. It is obvious that we have taken a road and where it will lead to is a questionmark. There is noone curious about it anyways. In March 2016 we took an Access class in Paris together. It was Tugba’s first Access class abroad. For me it was a class I hadn’t think of joining till she asked me: “ Aysun would you come to Paris with me?”It has contributed to mylife so much that it can be a plot for a book. I am grateful for this too thanks to her.
She thinks about everyone except herself. She has enough time for everyone. She listens to everyone. She has a big heart for everyone yet she now knows that she needs to in the center. I see that she puts so much effors.
It will happen and I will be near her when it happens. When she calls her first sentence is you are doing it. You just hear this and you can feel her heart. She opens it with the naiveness and energy of a little girl who has just learnt talking. Actually that energy is her love towards you. She has a great artistic talent. She paints, with her amazing painting talent she both vitalises things and re creates them. After all she is a Pisces woman. I am grateful for her presence and I love her. Thank god you are here.